Update

It has been quite sometime since I have written in this. I do need to get better I know. Things here in Salt Lake City are going. The city is changing all the time. One of the most biggest construction sites which is downtown is looking very awesome. There is always things here that are improving for the best. I can't up but think that from coming here, it would ever change. Oh was I so wrong. I have lived here now for 5 years 6 months and about 5 days. Everything is changing all the time.

Emerson is doing well. He is working and keeping himself busy. He was the EQ Secratery for a while. Now he is no longer that. He is now the EQ 1st Counselor. What a big change. He has been very busy keeping up with me. A recent thing I let Emerson get was X Box Live 12 month thing. He has fun playing with that when he wakes up.

I am doing the program for church every week and keeping up on that. Some may ask or want to know how things are with me. Well, I am hanging by a thread right now. But, I am doing. It has been really rough for me since my father died. It hasn't been an easy road to say the least. I continue to think at all of the things in this trial I have been faced with and the things I am facing now, are things I needed to know. I have been seeing the bishop at times for help and advice and as well as my Counselor. Well the chapter of the Counselor is now over for right now. There is not much more she can do. The lord had told the bishop the last time I met with him, it is now all up to me. I have to come up with my own decisions from here on out. If I fall, there will be problems I must face. Trust me in a million years, I myself never thought I would be walking down this type of a trial or road. I have been giving tools and now I must figure it out or try to figure it out. I am extreamly worn out and exhausted from trying to get through this. I don't have very much energy left in me. What energy I do have, I use that to get me through. Whatever road I am on, Emerson will be there to support me and help me get down that road.

We have gotten a new bishop. Our bishop now use to be the Executive Sec for our old bishop. He is 30 years old and his counslors are in there middle 20's I belive. So we have a young bishopbric. Our bishop has done his best to keeping tabs on me. He doesn't want to see me fall and he wants to support me with the help. But, he is trying his best after all he was told I must make the decisions now. The bishop was thrown in to the hardest time right now. He had to already do a funeral and some other things.

A dear friend of mine in my ward died of cancer little after dad died at 5 months. With it now being almost 7 months at 6 months a cousin had died of cancer. Now it is a waiting game on grandma and grandpa.

That is all I can think of at the moment. I need to get the program done and get some more sleep. I will try and get better. That is all I can say right now is, I will try.

What Has Been Up With Us?

I do want to say sorry for not writing for so long. It has been one of the most hectic times for me. I am hanging in there the best I can. I have been struggling with the death of my father who died on April 10, 2009 of very advanced prostate cancer. I loved him dearly. He means the world to me. With the help of Emerson, slowly but surely I should hopefully be able to move on. I have had a lot of friends as well help me along the way. I owe it all to them as well. I also owe a lot to my father-in-law. He is the greatest. He has been helping me as well. I look to him now as a father figure. But, deep inside I have been enriched with a father figure. Emerson is in a way like my father. I had gotten a calling. I am the Ward Program Specialist. It is fun doing this calling. I have been able to use a lot of different tools that I had learned in school. At least I have been able to use what I have been taught. I am also a Visiting Teacher Supervisor in the church as well.

Emerson is continuing on with working. He is doing good. He is just taking things right now as they come and with a grain of salt. He misses Dad dearly but, he has gotten past his point. He continues to stay near by when he cans. He is a great supporter with everything that happens. He is liking being Elders Quorum secretary for the church.

As a couple we do keep busy as much as possible. We just also recently celebrated our 5th Wedding Anniversary. That was the best day I have ever had in the past 2 years. We went up into Donut Falls where he proposed to me. We didn't go up all the way since my physical portion of my body has gone down quite a bit. But, the distance we did it was the best thing. We also went out to eat and had so much fun. Other then that, not much has been going on. I still am not working. But, that is a choice I have made with doctors orders along with husband's advice.

Thanksgiving

I went home for Thanksgiving and saw my family. It was great to see them. I loved seeing my father. I also loved seeing John. Oh what can I say? John has changed a lot going up into an adult. Emerson and I had a wonderful time. I didn't want to leave but, we had to leave. Being at Mom and Dad's was laid back. I enjoyed the vacation I had. I needed it. I knew I had to get out of my home for a week. Even though Emerson didn't come till the 26th, I missed him dearly. That was the longest I had been away from him since we were married. It was great though. It renewed my love to him on how much I do love him. Emerson has now met the whole family now. This was the first time John as ever met Emerson. I am happy things are good with Emerson and my family. That is all I wanted is for them to like him, like I love his family. I also cut my hair as well while I was home. I spent my 26th birthday with my family. It was wonderful. I can say I finally slept pretty well for the first time most of the nights I was with my family.

Emerson had to get back to work and I had to also move on with my life. I am still reading the Twilight Series. I started Eclipse on Monday and finished it yesterday. Today I started the last book Breaking Dawn. Emerson is taking me to see Twilight the movie today. I am so excited. I never thought I could like a book this much about Vampires. Wizards and Witches I knew I can but Vampires? I guess I am weird.

How are things going?

Well, what I thought was clotting wasn't. I just bursted a capsule in my foot which in turn bleeds under the skin surface. Some how and trust me I don't know how, I bumped my foot just right. With everything still trying to heal it will bleed under the skin surface. But like I said, there was no need to be alarm at anything. I am fine. It is a matter of, my foot can't be bumped, hit, stepped on, or so on. I have found out what can happen. To be honest with you I didn't feel anything what so ever. I just have to be a little more careful. There is a bump but, Dr. Collins said that it could be scar tissue or it could be something else. We think it is just scar tissue. Over all he said that if it doesn't hurt on the surface then don't worry about it.

Plans on heading back home are still in site. I have so much to do and it feels like I am running around with my head cut off like a chicken. There is so much going on and so little time to do everything in. I told my husband that as of the 19th I am pulling the plug on doing anything. The 19th is the last day I am going to schedule things if I have too. On the 20th, I have enough on my plate and I don't need anything else thrown in the mix. I have a running total of things that need to get done that day and it looks like I will be up well into the night. Almost everyday has something on it. So far there are still some days I don't have anything. Lets see if I can keep it that way. I feel like this week has gone by to quickly which in terms are good to a point. So far I am getting everything done that I need to get done.

The Holiday Season is now here. Times like this are the best to be in. But as I think about it, this year has gone by quickly. Where has it gone? I am so looking forward to going back home for Thanksgiving. I also like I said get to celebrate my 26th birthday with the family. I couldn't have asked for a better time to come back. I wish the snow will come and stick. We have had some good snowfalls already out here. It has been so beautiful. Some of the ski resorts are already opened which is early. We have very good snowfall up in the mountains.

Everything is continuing to go ok here in Salt Lake City. There has been some rough points up at Temple Square and everything with this past election. I hope that it will start to fall off and allow us to go on with our lives and not have so much media on the television. If it isn't one thing it is always another. Emerson is doing good. He is still working and working hard. I couldn't have asked for a better husband to be married too. It is wonderful to be married and to be living here in Salt Lake City. I am enjoying the big city life. There is a lot of construction going on to make Salt Lake City better. Things are being updated, expanded, and set to new code for earthquakes and other disasters that may hit us.

It has been awhile

Life here in Salt Lake City is going ok. My long time over due of my foot operations within the past year has come to an end as of right now. Knock on wood!!! I have healed beautifully as far as the sealing on the incision. There is some minor discoloring but, that will go away in time I hope. It is still in the healing process which is common, for the amount of complications and problems I have had with this foot. I have been sent away from the hospital and Dr. Collins. I was told I could do anything I want while it is still healing but, lay low till I fully get back on my feet again. I have started with some of my goals and it has been great. I have enjoyed my time getting out of the house. I do go to see Collins today. But, there is no need to worry. I don't feel there is anything wrong but for a piece of mind, I am having him look at something that could be some clotting under the skin. With all of the work that has been done, I tend to be a little more on the caution side. Who can blame me? Other then that, everything is going good with the foot.

The time has come for voting. I know that we are all excited to see who our next President is going to be. I know I am. I am honoring my voting privilege this election season. I know this has been a good race to the White House. The next time we vote won't be till 2012. It is a matter of seeing how this President will do with our Government and the US.

Coming soon, I will be heading back to Macomb, IL for a visit. I am leaving on Nov 21 and coming back on the 29th. I will be with my family this year for Thanksgiving and my birthday which is on the 23rd. My husband will be joining me on the 26th and coming back with me on the 29th. I am so looking forward to seeing my family again. It has been long over due. We haven't been together as a family in oh like 10 years I think. I have seen all of my siblings here in there but, not all at once. The last time I say John one of my oldest brothers was 9/11 when that happened. So yes, I think it is time. With Dad being the way he is, he needs all of his children and family near him. Two out of the four children will have there spouses with them. Jamie and her husband Shannon and me and my husband. I am so looking forward to seeing Shannon again. I miss him dearly along with my siblings of course. Jason will be coming over for Thanksgiving.

Things are going ok with Emerson and I. We are moving along in our lives for the most part. It has been a long time since we had that moving on. I have been busy with trying to get the weight off from all of the operations. I have also gotten into a new book series, Twilight. It is a wonderful series. But, it is second in line to Harry Potter. Harry Potter is still number one in my list. But, out of all of the other series I have read Twilight is second. Emerson is busy with working and enjoying his time with up coming days off. It is wonderful that for the most part I see him on a regular basis. As for a job for me, well that has been put on hold for a little bit. I need to get my energy back along with my health back first before and employer will hire me. For Salt Lake City today we are going to be cold and with SNOW!!!!! Wow amazing. I am so looking forward to the winter coming. It will be great.

What a Week So Far

Well I had my moment of going out with three of my friends this week. Two of them are from the Orem/Provo area and one is from the West Jordan area of Utah. We went to a place not far from my apartment that is called Mad Greek and we ate Lunch together. While the four of us ate we just laughed our heads off and had a wonderful time. This happened on Tuesday. Then of course I had to get back home and everyone else had to get back to there rightful places like Kevin had to go back to work since he was late, Jana and Julianna had to go back to the Orem/Provo area to there lives. When I got home I was waiting on a phone call from Dr. Collins and not feeling well. This week I have been so tired since Tuesday night it isn't funny. I have been sleeping in till like 10:30 or 11:00am which, many of you don't know me like this. I had also made a phone call where I was on hold for a total of 45 mins. I tell you companies. I had to fix a bill that I shouldn't have to pay or pay very little of and of course they didn't have my insurance information. So we got that fixed.

Tomorrow I have to go back to the wound clinic and we get to find out if I have to return to having the vacuum back on my foot or if the work that has been done will hold. I am not getting my hopes up to much but I do in fact hope to not go back on it. We shall see what happens. I do have pictures of what the vacuum looks like. So I will post those. No they aren't showing anything as far as seepage, blood, or anything along those lines.

So as you can see not much to the wound vacuum for that matter.

Weekend Time

This past weekend was awesome. On Saturday Emerson went to the Conference Center for Priesthood Leadership Meeting. It was part of the North Salt Lake Regional Stake Conference we had on Sunday. After he got home laundry got done. Ed and Mike came over while I was taking a snooze because carrying this wound vac and all takes a lot out of me. Plus the healing process has taken a toll on me. But, I had gotten up when I heard Mikes voice. So when I got up I watch Mike do a project for a little bit while Emerson and Ed were trying to get a computer up and running. Also Ed was on our other computer showing us something he did with his. Then we were building a computer online that would have taken over $10,000 and we were just laughing. After that Ed and Emerson got on Ed's Xbox 360 while Mike was still doing his project. I on the other hand was on the main computer just doing normal things in Facebook along with other things. Then when 11:45pm came rolling around Ed and Mike left Emerson and I went to bed at midnight since we had to be up for Stake Conference.

Sunday when we got up, we ran over to pick his Mom up and then went to the Conference Center. We had a total of 72 Stakes and 1 District in that Conference Center. Can I tell you that Conference was so amazing. President Monson spoke for an hour with us along with Sister Lund, Elder Ballard, and Elder Hinkley spoke. It of course lasted till noon. Once we got done we took Emerson's mother home and Emerson and I came home and relaxed. I took a long nap and got on the computer when I woke up. Emerson was on the other computer trying to get it up and running. Other then that, Sunday was a day I won't ever forget. Monson's talk was amazing. He spoke of things that needed to be worked on along with keeping the whole conference at heart and keep strong. The main points President Monson spoke on were the following: Keep our house a house of prayer, fasting, faith, learning, glory, order, and god. Under each of these he spoke of ways to do each. Like for Order he said we need to have a time for recreation, work, family, self, christ, spouse, and family. For Learning he said we need to learn all we can of the gospel along with the scriptures, and good books. These are just some of them. Sister Lund spoke on family and how to keep them safe and what to do, Ballard spoke on the Holy Ghost, and Hinckly spoke on the promises the lord made us and how to go with his promises he made to all of us.

Like I said this is a Stake Conference I will never forget. It was one of the best I have ever had since I was growing up I think. There have been good ones growing up but, this one tops them all.